It's really sad how... when you really feel you need to do something. Like you really want to do this thing. And then something else- some other job- gets in your way. You try to ignore it to pursue what you want to do and then another job piles on top of the next. And then the other. Then you're so overwhelmed with all of these things that you lost focus on what you wanted to do and all you remember is how satisfied you would be if you were doing it.
Take my case for example. I reaaaally reallly want to draw something... I want to do some beautiful piece of art that i know i would fully enjoy doing. But there's all this bloody coursework due in and it's just really killing my brain. I've missed painting and drawing something so much that it's really put a strain on me and i've just become reserved and just plain old grumpy. I hate all this coursework... i really do.
It's especially annoying when you know exactly what you want to do career wise but then theres all this pointless work that will just end up being a grade for things you wont need in life. For example, i take textiles, media and art, yeah? We've literally finished our coursework for textiles and its just onto revision and past papers. I DON'T NEED THIS (Sorry if i sound emo. But i'm very passionate about what i want to be. Having to do something that wont really effect my career annoys me slightly.) And then theres media which i've grown to love to despise JUST A LITTLE because there's so much work to do for the coursework. ART is the one thing i really want to focus on but i can't because all the teachers have made us give the work in in the last week of the bloody year.

I just want to draw something brilliant.. i haven't done so for months. I haven't had the time or the patience or anything. Agh.